My Step Father

When I was thirteen I fell madly in love for the first time...with my step father. After I gave all that I was to him, including my innocence, he left me in a bitter world to suffer with a harsh reality. He went to prison for what society called child molestation. In my tiny mind I thought it was my first love affair. He told me I was the most beautiful woman in the world. I believed him. Years later, I find out he fell for me because it was his only way to be with my mother again, they divorced a year before the "affair." He saw my mother in me, and tried to live the life he lead with my mother, through a thirteen year old child. Now every morning, I try so hard not to look in a mirror, afraid to see a booze battered, drug induced forty year old woman that is my mother. I am twenty and married now, but not once has anyone ever made me feel beautiful, I won't let them.